Saturday, December 31, 2005

Happy New Year

Another year...2006. We're behind on a lot of things. If you watch "Back to the Future 2" we're supposed to be in levitating cars and dehydrated pizzas by 2015 so they better get moving with the inventions damnit.

New Year's eve has always been somewhat of a depressing day for me. It's like the day before all the Christmas decorations come down and the signal for everyone that the Holidays are over..."go back to your normal obnoxious selves". Sure...people get grumpy during the season when they're shopping and such, but at least it's for a good cause. The rest of the year they are just grumpy...just because.

What do people do today? I've heard different things. Growing up my parents just whipped up a big shabu-shabu feast at their house and we really didn't do much. The day AFTER new years sucked because that's when dad made us throw out the Christmas tree (it's still good for another 2 months!!!) and mom made us do all the house cleaning.

I remember a friend once told me a superstition that you're not supposed to do anything on the first day of the year because that's going to forecast what you'll be doing for the rest of the year. So I guess the reasoning is that if you do nothing on this day, you'll end up doing nothing. And that's a good thing I suppose. No wonder I spent most of my life cleaning and dumping trees.

I've heard more then one person say the day before the new year you should get everything in order. Clean the house, take care of loose ends. I think this is an Asian thing. I can see that I suppose...having everything in shape for the new year is like clearing the plate to take on all the new stuff for the coming year.

I guess that's what I'm doing today..... yippee.

2005 was a pretty wild year looking back.... left a long-term job, started my own business, visited a country I've never been to before, climbed out of possibly one of the lowest points in my life, and despite the fact it's a strange long-distance thing, I met someone pretty special.

2006 is going to be preeeeeeeeetty wild.... I'll be on pins and needles heading up towards Sept as that will mark my 1st anniversay for my business. A lot of businesses fail in the first year they say right? Well, I gotta do my best to get past this shaky 1st year then. One baby step at a time.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Cool designs

I had the lucky chance to have a class under an art instructor named Clem Lagundimao Jr. From what I understood, he had already been retired but was asked to come back to help teach because of a shortage of instructors at the time.

I can remember a handful of instructors throughout both my highschool and college time that made a lasting impact on me, and although I didn't spend that much time under Clem's instruction, somehow he managed to click some things into my head that will last me for my entire career.

I remember one of the things he encouraged was for us to go out and just simply observe design as it is all around us. Magazines, advertisements, commercials, billboards, photos, etc. I think ever since then I've never gone anywhere without at least taking a peek at how it was designed. I'd be hanging out at a restaurant with friends and they'd be figuring out what to order, I'd be thinking, "Hmmm...the font on this sucks" hehe.

But it does work... every time we look at a menu or logo imprinted on the store window, it's not hard to imagine that SOME designer sat behind that for hours at a time struggling to come up with something that will give a good impression for his/her client.

SOO....in honor of design, I've decided to start collecting artwork I see around town. Sort of my homage to design. Some of them I simply like, or some that just caught my eye for some reason. I hope the original designers don't get angry at this and sue me. HEY! I'm giving you praise!

Not sure exactly what this one is trying to achieve. It was a small postcard flier for some photography exhibition that was here just before christmas.

Not particularly amazing design but I did like the detail in this particular black & white photo. It's silly...but I like the use of the plus symbol (+) in the phrase too. A little overdone maybe but somehow it still seems kind of cool in my book.

I like the font in the "Chi Gung" part of this post card. I'm not so sure what the flower illustration had to do with Chi Gung though. Maybe because this was marketed to women's classes? Hmmm....

The Chinese characters in the background are a mystery to me. Some Chinese guy I am huh? For all I know it probably says "You will kick many men's asses" Here I am with another ass comment again.





Aaaah. The circus font. I have a font kind of like this but where in the world would I ever have the chance to use it? I like this though...there's a lot of detail you normally wouldn't immediately catch in it.

There's the sun rays coming out from the back, the white speckles, the fancy flowery embellishments around the top and bottom of it. Plus the fact the designer played around with the font sizes pretty effectively.

This one really caught my eye. I like this one a lot. I forget what client I pitched to once, but a circus type design like this would have worked out well.

This one was kind of cheesy. But I liked it a lot as well. I mean, it could have taken the designer no more then 20 minutes to whip this up but somehow he/she managed to do a good job here.

Good job with balancing black and white compositions here. This one is just so dinky it's cool.


I got this card in the mail today by a local design firm I've had much respect for. Eric Woo Design. Eric and his team of print designers are great. I think what they do is pretty cutting edge and not your typical "do it like every other Hawaii trend" type design I see from other firms around town.

Their card is cool. When it's closed, it says "2006". Open up the flaps and it brings on the new year with a cute little "Woof!" Hahah. Very cool. Kudos!

Now I gotta think....how will I top that next year? Time to throw down the gauntlet baby! haha.

Perfect person

How is it that marriage is down to 50-50 these days? Isn't it sad?

I hear marriages take place all the time on TV....yet, don't we always kind of mumble to ourselves, "yeah, I give that marriage 6 months." We all know it's not going to last. Britney and Federline...YEAH RIGHT!. Brad and Angelina..... SUUURE. I give that relationship maybe 3 or 4 years tops. You heard it here first folks.

So marriage has come down to nothing more then a piece of paper that makes things just slightly more complicated for a couple to separate?

How is it that there are some couples who are still desparately in love with each other after 40, 50 years of marriage? You rarely see this, but sometime you can watch a senior couple with obvious concern and feelings for each other just as much as the day they met. But this kind of sight is rarer and rarer.

Of course there are no guarantees in anything in life. And surely marriage is in some part a gamble I'm sure. It's an acceptance of someone both because of his or her strengths and weaknesses. It's hard to imagine the person you have a new love with to have faults but they are there as much as we would have our own.

My brother is convinced that the only true way to find out about the other person is to live together for a while. Kind of like a "test drive" for a car. I don't dispute that, but not everyone has that luxury. My own circumstance is a case in point of a difficult situation since we're thousands of miles apart.

But live-in relationships are only a fairly recent circumstance that has become socially acceptable.... look at the generations before us who didn't do that. How is it that they stayed together so long and how is it they knew they found the "one"?

Is it that our generation has become too obsessed with expecations? Too obsessed with having the perfect person?

Shit what am I, Oprah?

I guess it's all come up all of a sudden for me. I see my own parent's relationship sometimes gets tested, and I sometimes listen to friends complain about their marriage partners as well. I makes me fearful that marriage even works out at all anymore.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Happy Holidays

OK, I suppose it's just "Happy New Year" already. Christmas came and went already...what a blur. It was so incredibly hectic for me the first couple weeks of December I have no idea what happened.

This was the card I sent around to my clients for the Holidays this year. Figured I answered enough questions about my logo already, this time they can see where I based my drawing from. Found a santa hat somewhere and photoshopped that in.

Yes, the world has been cruel to me heheh. I don't know what the hell I was looking down at though. Maybe I was daydreaming on a blade of grass or something. Teachers used to say I daydreamed a lot.

That's a cool red-hooded sweatshirt though. I gotta find me another one someday and take another picture in that very pose hehe.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!! Another Christmas day where I stuffed my face with good food again. It's been a family thing where we go out somewhere nice to eat for dinner. This year mom took us to Ruth Chris. Only my brother wasn't there of course, but I know he went to Tahoe recently so he had his own ways of having fun didn't he?

Ruth Chris was good but maybe just a little bit overhyped. Especially for the prices they were charging. If you want the best steak in Hawaii. I'd suggest Le Bistro over by Aina Haina.

Dad had a pretty slick chinese "shirt" (he says "Don't call it a shirt"; we said, "So what do you call it then?"; no answer, So we'll call it a shirt.) I liked it a lot. Dad got a few compliments on it already.

Christmas was good. I had a chance to spend a little bit of time with Christy as well. She had a party to attend to tonight herself so we grabbed some time in the morning to talk. I had gotten her a nice watch for Xmas...she said she's keeping it on Hawaii time so she knows what's going on with me. How sweet heheh. (I can hear a collective "UGH" from my readers here because of the "shmoopy talk")

I got a few cool gifts this year. My two sisters broke the rules this year and got me something despite our promise not to exchange gifts and just go out to eat. But the gifts were great and I love them.

Jen & Derr (I can't even keep track of all the fake names I'm giving people. I give up!), got me this cool card holder case. It flips closed with a near invisible latch...when you press it, it pops open. I love it.

Now my cards will no longer get all creased by my butt shape being in my wallet! Yesterday (before I got this) I had happened to meet this Hawaiian guy sitting in the table next to me at Starbucks. We got to talking and later he asked me for my card. I slipped out out for him out of my wallet and it definitely had a distinctive ass shape to it. Maybe he can cast a mold. Why are my blogs full of ass stories? hmmm.

BD and Dawny got me a couple of cool things. Check out this cool hand made wallet made entirely of duct tape! Cool!

Dawny is very much into her crafts lately. She made me this tshirt for our "Three Amigos Fan Club". In my opinion, "The Three Amigos" starring Chevy Chase, Steve Martin, and Martin Short has to rank as one of the, if the THE, funniest movies of all time.

We joke we're among the only fans of this movie in the entire world. So our fan club is 5 members strong!

Mom got me some cool scented candles and a certificate for a shiatsu massage. Ahhhhhhh. I wonder if she's telling me to relax more?

And of course I got my warm bear slippers & HK noodles from my honey.

This has been a good Christmas. My first one with my business too! Good year. OH! I gotta show my christmas card graphic I made for my clients this year. That was fun.... I'll put it up later.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Removable Things

I've really gotten into Jack Johnson music over this past year. I think he's a great songwriter...this is just my opinion of course, but being as involved in music as I've been over the past couple decades, I feel that's saying a lot.

It's just so very positive. I think in the early part of this past year I was in about as deep a depression as I've ever been for various reasons....without this music I may have had a much harder time climbing out. I've never done this before, but for 2 months I listened to nothing else but Jack Johnson. I didn't watch any TV, I didn't put on any of my other thousands of CDs....just his music on permanent loop from morning till night. Wacky huh? Even I thought it was bizarre at the time but it was the only thing that made me feel good. Better then drowning myself in drugs or alcohol I guess.

I've kind of kept part of that habit up for positive spirits. For the past year I've almost completely rid myself of watching or reading the news. News isn't positive at all. What do you watch but stories of people dying, politicians spouting bullshit, disease, war, etc etc. Why do I need that in my life? Screw it I say. I don't know what's going on beyond my own life and I've been much happier about it.

Look at this lyric from JJ's song "Gone"
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And cars and phones and diamond rings
Bling, bling
Those are only removable things
And what about your mind
Does it shine or
Are there things that concern you more
Than your time

Gone going
Gone everything
Gone give a damn
Gone be the birds when they don’t want to sing
Gone people
All awkward with their things
Gone

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How good is that? It just grounds me. When I look around me....what do I care about this stupid iPod, PSP, TV, Stereo, cell phone, etc etc. When it comes down to it, what really matters is family & friends. My new business isn't here to enable me to get rich. It's here to enable me to enjoy more time with friends and build a family of my own.

I think.... If my girl Christy turns out to be the "one" someday, all this material stuff I would gladly give up in a second. Sell it all, pick up roots, plant myself in a new life full of new experiences. I guess only time will tell if I feel as strongly about this in the time to come. It's exciting daydreaming about it for sure.

Look at JJ for instance. He's gone from pro surfer, to successful filmmaker, and now to celebrity songwriter. Would he be where he is without having taken chances and stumbled around in life?

Christy sent me an e-card yesterday...it had a cartoon of a guy holding a whiteboard in front of him. In the back it said "All I want for Christmas is.....". Then the guy draws a big red "U" on the board. Hehehe. Awwww. High school stuff I know but still brings a smile to my face regardless. Gone everything, Gone give a damn

I highly recommend the 2 Jack Johnson DVDs if you like the music at all. One was filmed at the Greek Theatre over in CA. My brother actually went to that show. The other was filmed in Japan. Damn solid DVD this Greek show. Just like being there.

A few months earlier I had gone to JJ's concert over here at the Waikiki Shell. He had G.Love, Ozomatli, John Cruz, and Jackson Browne here with him. Memory might have faded from me but I must count that as one of the top live concerts I've ever been to...and I've been to a lot. The encore to the night was a 3 way harmony with JJ, JBrowne, and John Cruz. The heavens opened up I swear.

Gym Observations

I've been going to the gym for about 3 years straight now. I've surprised myself to be honest with you. I never knew I could keep it up. I think it's a combination of (1) my rebel attitude again...nobody thought I would keep it up, so think part of me wants to prove them wrong, and (2) my "Chinese" pake side of me doesn't want to pay $20/mo and waste it.

But I'm pretty happy with the results so far. I actually got a little tone in my arms and I have rippling chest muscles. OK, maybe not "rippling" but at least I have tone there too heheh. Visions of the SNL sketch "I will pump you up" come to mind.

It's nice. I've always been concious of the fact I was just a skinny stick growing up too. Of course Mel's ass comment didn't help either. That bastard. So I guess going the gym involved a more healthy reason too....it's a solvable way to improve my health and confidence the old fashioned way.

The thing about the gym though, no matter how good you begin thinking you look, there will always be someone bigger then you, someone taller then you, someone who can lift more then you, someone who can run faster, etc etc etc. It's a very good place to stay humble. Here I am breaking sweat over a 100 lb curl and someone walks right up next to me and curls weights equivalent to my whole body weight on each arm.

I've gotten used to some of the characters there though. I'm starting to see some regulars. First there's a guy I call Bermuda. He's this balding white guy who wears wife-beater tank tops and bermuda shorts. He always has knee high sports socks too. Somehow he must be compensating for something because he always walks around with his arms about 1 foot apart from his body...as if his arms are so HUGE that they defy gravity. Apparently he hasn't read my paragraph about being humble. I notice him because he just looks silly doing that...especially with his shiny head and daffy bermuda shorts.

There's a girl I see there that scares me sometimes too, I call her The Brow. Really skinny atheletic woman maybe in her late 30s. She usually sports 2 pony tails and has straight bangs...kinda like those retro 50's hairlines. I'd say she may have been very cute about 15 years ago. I mean, she's not bad looking now, she's not ugly and I'm sure she has her share of men...but the thing about her that sticks out in my mind is her HUGE eyebrows. It just doesn't suit her and is entirely distracting. It's like she can flap them and take off I swear. I just want to walk up to her with a lawn mower and start trimming. Yea, it's a little metro of me to even have those thoughts, but hey -- a woman's eyebrows support some of the best parts about her appearance...they frame her eyes! I want to see a woman's eyes and her smile. Not her giant eyebrows.

OK, I may burn in hell.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

UGH. IPod for dummies

God, iPod software drivers for Windows is STUPID. First the thing almost crashes my system on reboot and later gives me the first serious Windows boot up error in 3 years.

After an hour & a full system restore, the damn iPod wouldn't get detected on my USB. Now I've got tons of USB devices; from my $50 Rio MP3 player to my $1000+ Olympus camera. Webcam, headset, external harddrives, playcontrollers, tablets, etc etc. All have installed within seconds and I have no problems.

THIS damn thing doesn't work. You know what the online manual says to solve this problem? "Reset, reboot, retry" . Later it says "if it doesn't work, try it again. Third time's a charm" Ha ha ha ha. I'm so amused. Damn Apple comedian bastards. I want to slap them right upside the head see how funny their manual is after that.

Two hours later, resetting the iPod and a couple of software upgrades later I finally get it working.

Now I'll be the first one to admit when there's a well designed product. Contrary to popular opinion about me, I'm not anti-Apple at all. I think the hardware for Apple products are awesomely designed. I mean, look at their monitors, they're gorgeous. MacOSX looks like a beautiful OS too. I can only wish Windows looked that good.

The iPod itself is beautiful. It's so simple. And I must say the click-dial is about as well designed as you can get.

BUT (you all knew there was a "BUT" didn't you?): (a) the chrome back of the iPod is a fingerprint magnet. I mean, you'd have to wear surgeon's surgical gloves not to leave any marks on the thing when you pick it up. The PSP suffers from the same problem. How hard is it to design a matt faced back that doesn't pick up fingerprints? Does the shiney chome look nice.....not with 10 billion fingerprints all over it.

(b) The integration with iTunes is idiotic. Just give me a drag and drop interface...I don't need this thing with playlists and auto updates. I don't need this damn thing trying to guess what I want on my iPod or not. UGH. Turned that off first chance I got.

Yeah, I'm in a pissy mood after fussing with this for 2 hours. BAAAH humbug.

Monday, December 19, 2005

I've sunk to a new low

OK... the sky will come crashing down on me soon.

I've joined the endless train of lemmings and got myself an iPod today. I actually bought it from my mom. Can you BELIEVE her company gave everyone in the company an iPod for EACH of them?!! Every man, woman, & intern there got one....young or old. INCONCEIVABLE!

Which brings up a side point, insurance is almost the perfect model of business don't you think? What do you sell? NOTHING. You get people to pay you money "In case shit happens". But even if shit doesn't happen -- you don't have to give any back! It's unbelievable....so technically, you have no inventory whatsoever so really your only expense is people power. How much people do you really need? You need someone to take the calls and type up the paperwork for the customer. That's IT!

UUUGH. Insurance just feels like the biggest sham in the world to me. Yet you can't really do without. Case in point, when my dad fell off a mountain in 2002, it was insurance money that saved our asses from being 20k - 30k in debt from medical expenses. So then that was like Mr. Insurance pointing a finger at us and going "SEEE!? Told you that you need us!" So dad got his money's worth.

So if it's not the insurance company's fault, then the finger should be pointed at the medical industry charging amounts that are completely beyond what a typical hard-working person can afford in their lifetime.

If it's not their fault then it's the pharmaceutical company's for the high drug prices. Not them? Then it's the lawyers for all the patent fees and law suits. SOMEBODY is making money and it ain't me biatch! ARRRGH.

Anyway, mom's company did good this past year so that's their reward. So I'm buying it from her because mom really needs the money lately. Dad flying away to see my grandma really put a dent on the budget these past few months. I really technically can't afford this but my mom said I can pay in installments so that should be cake eventually. This is just a very tight month because of end-of-the-year taxes and expenses.

Anyway, it's pretty slick. I had wanted one of these for years now but never saw justice in paying so much for it. But it's nice.... 30GBs plus I guess these ones have a big enough screen for videos now? Guess I'll find out. Let's see how much of my CD collection I can fit on this sucker!!!

I've sold my soul.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Christmas

Check out the slippers my baby got me for Christmas! Hahah. Yeah I don't normally wear slippers at home but it was such a sweet thought from her. It actually came in handy the last two nights when it was a bone-chilling 59F. BRRRRRRR.

I'm behind on my Christmas presents. I haven't thought of anything for my mom and dad yet. For shame! Yes, I had taken care of sending my brother and Christy early...they were easy.

But mom and dad are a bit hard. I can't think of anything at all. Last year I lucked out. I spent a month creating a family album for my mom and she loved it. For the past year she's been taking that around showing that to all her friends.

How do I top that this year? I don't wan't to get anything for their house...because my dad has enough trash as it is. I can't get them food...my dad stacks the refrigerator up just as high as when both me and my brother lived at home. Turns out he eats more then me and my brother combined. My dad always says, "I can go a whole day without lunch!"

He doesn't complete the sentence: ".....but at night I can eat a moose and still have enough room left over for dessert"

So.... it might end up being something where I just take them out to eat. Lame, but it's always a fallback for parents. Not like I have a whole lot to spend anyway.

Back to work!

Friday, December 16, 2005

Hawaii Captive Insurance Council

Ahhhh! Another project done! Spent the last month and a half doing production work for the Hawaii Captive Insurance Council (http://www.hawaiicaptives.com). I can't claim the design for this site, but I basically did all the production and layout work for it. Picked up the job after the original design firm dropped the ball on their client.

I don't mind the design, I think it's pretty clean and simple. Of course I may have done things differently but for all it's worth, it's a clean template. I've worked with this particular design firm before. They're basically my competition but in a market this small, we really can't afford having a bad relationship with anyone. At least that's my take on it. This particular firm I quite respect because they do clean coding. I like that.

Of course, I know for a fact there are design businesses in town who bad mouth everyone. So I wouldn't be shocked to hear of my competitors knocking down what I do. It's business. People can choose to run it any way they like right?

I prefer the old saying, "You scratch my back, I'll scratch yours".

Anyway, this job wasn't difficult, but it was hella time-consuming. I'm glad to have it all done finally.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Funny writing

I think the best blog I most enjoy reading every once in a while comes from a guy named Azrael who works as an English teacher over in Japan. He's been keeping this blog of his experiences over there and he cracks you up with the funniest things that happen there. A must read! http://outpostnine.com/editorials/teacher.html

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Kakaako Park

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I took some photos yesterday in the late afternoon after running. I was hoping to get some downtown shots from that area but it turns out the view of downtown from that area kind of sucked.

Nonetheless I just ended up walking up a few of the rolling hills and taking some photos. I still suck at photography, but it was fun anyway.

Miniature People

Watching the little 1st graders was quite an experience. They were so cute and just as I expected, I think I made some little friends here and there. It's not hard to please little guys like that.

I didn't particularly enjoy every part of the experience. Somehow, walking on a school campus not knowing anybody there gave me flashbacks from the few times in childhood when I was the new kid in school. I hated the feeling then and I guess all these years later that anxiety stuck around till now.

Anyway, the kids themselves were great. It takes about 5 mins of observation to see which ones are the talkative kids, the popular kids, the quiet ones, the bratty ones, the teacher's pet, etc. I guess all my classroom social skills are still in tact too!

I had a lot of "OOOOH! You're so tall!", "Can you touch the roof of the bus?...OOOH!", "How old are you...are you 100?", "You are 12!", "Can you sit next to me?", "Is your name Mr. Rap like Mr. Rapper!?", on and on... Imagine all those questions all at once.

I got a few "Mmslaogh soaoa aoonaogo". Some of the kids wanted to tell me something but they were so shy and quiet I didn't hear a thing. I felt like all my years of playing loud music must have fried a few ear receptors because I was like the deaf old guy. The usual response then was usually "Uh huh..... yeah.....uh huh"

Are they still snooty little dirt balls? Of course! I saw more then a few kids coughing and sneezing, rubbing their noses, sticking hands down their pants scratching their arses, etc. I think to myself, "And I'm going to hold their hands?! No way!"

But nonetheless I have to say I enjoyed watching the group of youngsters again. They were so easy to please. Remember when we were young and one of the biggest events on a field trip was busting out our sack lunches? What did mom and dad pack for us?

Sack lunch contents played a big role in the social event. First, the worse was when you forgot lunch entirely. That was a traumatic event, you get dropped off at school and then it hits you that every other kid in class has their lunch and you don't. You feel like the biggest loser. You're the one that ends up getting charity items from the other kids in class.

You might have been the kid who had the parent who packed the "asian" meal. Some of you probably know what I'm talking about. There was a enough food for you, but somehow these were things that were just a little different from all the other kid's lunches and sometimes a big inconvenient to bring for lunch too. You'd get a big piece of grapefruit, some kind of mystery musubi made out of yesterday's leftovers, or some kind of soup thing with a big spoon.

On occasion, you might end up being one of the cool kids. Cool kids had something in their lunches that everyone wanted. Maybe you had those crackers with the cheese spreads. Or you had a big package of fruit roll-ups, or M&Ms. THAT was special. Not necessarily because those items were good to eat, but they were instant bargaining & social tools.

First you can walk around to the other kids and go "SEE? Look what I got!" and swing them around like you suddenly struck gold. If you're "lucky" you strike up the vultures. "I want!" "Me first!", "I'm your friend!" Soon you'll get a trail of kids following you around like a pack of leeches.

Then you go around passing these things out to those you think deserve that precious M&M. Like you're the king endowing his subjects with gifts of wealth. Oh the benevolent king gives his best friends his M&Ms first even though they didn't ask for any, then he decides to give some to the beggars around him because they will worship him.

In this group of beggars there will be one or two leeches that the king doesn't quite like. But they're BIGGER. A wise king always saves one or two M&Ms to pay off the hulks.

I saw so much of this going on today while eating lunch. It brought back so much. It's amazing any one of us survives childhood.

Monday, December 12, 2005

1st Graders

Going to help my friend chaperone her 1st grade class to the Academy of Arts on Wednesday. I'm a little nervous about that. What do I know about watching 1st graders?

Sure, I'm exposed quite often to my friend's kids, and I love them. But traditionally I'm not absolutely the type of person that would just be very familiar with just any strange kid. And that's perhaps a good thing isn't it? I mean....I see a snotty little kid come by and stare at me I just walk away. Little disease carrying dirt ball! hahah. I sound evil don't I? Perhaps I shouldn't be doing this.

Nah, it should be fine. I originally said OK to this just as a break from my normal routine. Shouldn't be TOO hard. I used to be a junior leader for Summer Fun programs back in maybe my Freshman and Sophomore years of high school. It was kind of fun, sometimes kids warm up to you pretty quickly and suddenly you're their "favorite" leader and stuff like that. Flattery gets you everywhere.

So we're going to see the Academy of Arts and later the Honolulu Hale where the Xmas Trees are being exhibited. I hope I don't lose any kids or let any trees topple on those poor suckers. WHOOPS!

Now I just gotta find out how to bring my own "sack lunch". I haven't owned a sack or taken my lunch around with me in years! Where the heck will the lunch wagons be?

Where or where did my weekends go?

Worked all weekend. Both days from 8am till about midnight. Had planned to try to take some time on Sunday to go spend a half-day on the beach. But knowing the Honolulu Marathon was going on and seeing the weather slightly chilly...I ended up staying home.

Even then...as I tried to watch some TV as my "weekend relaxation", I kept thinking about all the work I had to do. BAM! There I was...sitting right back at my computer again working.

Am I a work-a-holic? No, far from it. But I hate hate hate making promises to people I can't keep. If I say it's going to be done I'm doing it. If I tell someone I'm meeting them somewhere, I'll be there.

All being said, I made some good progress this weekend and I'm glad I worked so hard. Hopefully by the end of this week I'll have finished my Hawaii Captive Insurance project, as well as my law firm one.

The Law Firm one is looking pretty nice. I'm actually on a roll for that one so I should have it up by the end of the following week. Then I can post it here. I'm fairly proud of that one as I had taken all the photos myself and they look pretty good.

My Tiki project is coming along. A couple days delay because of my sick days last week. But it's starting to pull together. Still many hours needed to get it to the point I'm happy...but enough to show some progress.

King Kong is coming out this week. The movie I've been looking forward to for a while now. Maybe I'll find a day to go check that out before the weekend. :) Self-employment should have advantages I can enjoy huh?

Friday, December 09, 2005

Logos

Figured I'd show some of the sketches from the closed project I had a month back. I hope my former client doesn't mind, because she had something else come up that potentially nixed this project.

So all I have are these pencil and pen sketches. I uploaded them to my Flickr account so they're all available to see on the right hand side.

I don't know. I like seeing artist's work-in-progress stuff. It's good insight into their thinking process. I came up with all these ideas for her one night sitting my myself up at a Starbucks. I think some of them had promise.

As much as possible, I'll try to show work-in-progress stuff as my projects get done. That would be fun.

Missing Persons

You ever have people you knew in the past you lost track of? Ever wonder where they are and how they are doing.

Every once in a while I get these moments where I wish I knew where some of my old friends are. I had a handful of best friends before I was 10 that are in god-knows-where right now. I wonder if they ever think of me?

When I was a toddler through about 4 or 5 I had a best friend named Stephanie. I remember sleeping over at her house and she'd sleep over at mine. At that age pretty much anyone that will share their sandbox with you is a friend, but Stephanie's mom was a friend of my parents so we saw each other a lot. They lived somewhere in Hawaii Kai I think

I was close enough to Stephanie that I remember thinking that she was my "girlfriend" hahah. How sad...a little 5 year old talking about girlfriend? I was a hopeless romantic even then. Emphasis on the Hopeless.

Anyway, Steph's mom eventually moved them both to San Fran somewhere. For a the next couple of years we exchanged letters and I remember sending her drawing stencils. She'd use them a little while and then send it back to me. How cute huh?

The last time I saw Steph she was back in the Islands for a visit. This was about 10 years ago now I think. I remember our families met at the Hard Rock Cafe... which was new at the time.

It was the WORST place to meet. I didn't say a word to her and ended up having more of a conversation with her other friend who was sitting next to me. The music was so loud there you really couldn't hear anybody talk. Plus I was nervous to see her after what was about 15 years of absense. It wasn't a romantic thing but, you know, you just get nervous? Anyway, suffice to say I didn't get to talk to Steph at all and she maybe ended up leaving Hawaii thinking I was a jerk who just wanted to flirt with her friend. I've never seen or heard from her since.... I even tried searching for the name and emailing a couple of "Stephanie" people in SF one time to see if I could find her. hahah. NOPE!

In first grade, I had a best friend named Jeffrey. I remember Jeffrey had one glass eye. He lived just a block down from where my parents are now. One time he mom invited me to their place. I remember we were out on their balcony watching this plastic bag float up and down over the highway because of the wind drafts. We laughed so hard we couldn't stop. His mom probably thought we both went insane. It was just one of those uncontrollable laughter moments... these are harder to come by as you get older.

I had a friend named Piers over when my family spent a year over in Australia back in '79. I don't remember much from him but I can imagine he's probably tackling crocs somewhere. CROIKEY!!

Where are all these people? Are they doing alright? Do they all have families of their own now? Do they write in their own blogs saying "I knew this guy named Raph......."

The Picture of Everything

This guy took a couple years to draw this huge artwork that supposedly has "everything" in it. It's pretty hilarious. Sure enough, some of the most remote things you can think of are in this drawing. I used to have a lot of time on my hands when I was younger...but not THIS much time.

He even has a site "The Picture of Everything". TOO. MUCH. TIME.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Overdoing it?

I was feeling pretty crappy the last 2 days. Not really a flu, but I had this congested feeling in my head, a small fever, and a persistent headache. Ended up sleeping a lot but the more I slept, the more I felt dizzy when I woke up.

Horrible feeling. What made it worse was the nagging concern over delays in my schedule. No, I wasn't missing any deadlines, but I certainly have some coming up and I know each day lost is another day I have to work double-time to catch up later.

So I'd sit here staring at my computer throughout the day trying to get my mind to push through. Then I'd give up in frustration 30 minutes later. It's been a battle these last couple days.

I've had a few people telling me to remember to take some breaks for myself. They say I'll work better later if I give my mind some time to recover. I know that. I've given this same advice to other people I care about too. But it's easy to say, not easy to do -- especially when you're the only one responsible to get things done for your business.

I also feel guilty sometimes. I may spend the whole day at home "working". But it's not completely without distraction. I may decide to clean my house a bit, I may sit down for Judge Judy (shut up!), or I may decide to take a nap for a bit. So each one of these things make me feel like I'm not actually putting in the time I should. This is where the struggle for discipline kicks in. I'm always mentally kicking myself for slacking. Like I'm the worse boss to myself.

But I will force myself to take a break. How funny is that? :) I DO know the books I've read about self-employment all encourage me to take control of my business, don't let it control me. So maybe beginning this week I will enforce one or two days a week where I'll just absolutely not think about work at all.

So my family on my dad's side recently built a temple to the "Lo" family line somewhere in China. I guess it traces our lineage back to who knows where. I've been "volunteered" to donate some money for the building of this temple. I had a hard time with donating. (1) because I was never asked, (2) a temple seems like such a waste of money. If I had money to give away I would have felt a Red Cross would have needed it more, and (3) I'd likely never see the temple myself. 95% of the Lo side line I've never even met before.

Now of course I feel horrible. If I don't donate it's like I'm letting my dad down. But it couldn't have come at a worse time when I'm worrying about cash flow and all that good stuff. Plus my Aunt (dad's youngest sister) has always sent me money for my Christmas and Birthdays ever since I was a baby. I am almost obligated to give money to this whether I like it or not.

I hate being obligated for anything. Those who know me knows that if someone tells me I have to do something or I CAN'T do something, I end up doing the opposite. It's like I hate having people tell me what to do, and I hate people telling me I can't do something. I don't know where I get this attitude from.

Well, I hope my donation goes towards something good in that temple. I'll imagine they're training Shaolin monks in there or something. Maybe it will buy them rice cakes.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Cash Flow

Cash flow is a huge thing when you're freelancing. On paper, you could have promises from people that make you feel like you're doing great!

So someone agrees to pay you $6000 for their project. GREAT! Wonderful! You think to yourself, "oh that will cover rent for another 3 or 4 months!" But then I got to account for the fact I may not see that money till 3 or 4 months down the line till after the project is finished.

So what do I do in the meantime? Car insurance, rent, taxes coming up, accountant, business bills, rent.

With a regular salary job, you can kind of run lean sometimes. Perhaps you're down to just barely enough to get by but you always know you can ride it out till the next paycheck in a couple weeks. With freelance, there isn't that paycheck. You have to think ahead about what you need almost 3 or 4 months ahead of you. It's kind of the freaky part of working on your own.

So when people ask me... "are you doing good?". The answer is mixed. It's "OK" is what I say. It seems like I'm doing great. But if I'm not careful, things could get ugly.

The biggest mistake is thinking you're "rich" when you're not. Never assume money in the bank now, means there's enough there to spend frivously. If you think the amount in the bank account is "enough", try to save up at least double that amount to cover for unexpected things.

I'm going to have to run tight these next couple months. Who knows how much I'll owe in taxes come February. I'm a little scared, and a little stressed. Makes me kind of regret pulling the unemployment benefits a bit. That would have been a good safety net just in case.

Well, it's sink or swim at this point. Just gotta go balls to the wall to finish projects up and get those invoices out.

But just when I needed it most, I receive a card from my girl today. "I know you are working hard these days. I'm sending you this card for encouragement." Damn, how good is that? What an angel. ^__^

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Friends

I consider myself extremely lucky. I have 4 good friends I would consider lifelong... we've known each other for over 20 years now and it's likely we'll be wheeling each other around when we're all in our 80s.

B.D. over here is our group comedian. Here he is holding the gift I gave him yesterday. It's a re-gift, my cousin had given it to me for a laugh and I passed it on for another laugh.

Hey!!! No naughty thoughts! It's a toilet paper dispenser!!! What did you think it's for?

Sometimes I hear conversations about friendship -- even my own mother had instances in the past where people she had thought were friends had suddenly let her down or had disappeared. So, yeah, true friendship is elusive.

I sometimes visit this huge online board called Offtopic.com. It's exactly what it sounds like...it has thousands of members on it talking about any subject you can possibly imagine. At any given time, there's always at least a few hundred people on this thing. Right now it's close to 10pm here....there's 1100 people reading Offtopic at this very moment. It's a shark tank...you can say something and a second later you'll have dozens of responses to it.

I started visiting this last year as my brother had recommended this one section called "Asylum" where you can post your troubles and usually you'll get good responses on it. Some responses are obviously from idiots, but there are some recurring posters who are incredibly inciteful. Because it's all anonymous...they won't hold back. If you're an idiot about something, they'll tell you! But in Asylum you'll get people who have gone through abortions, family deaths, relationship breakups, drug addictions, etc etc. Quite a lot of messed up people out there. But it's good free therapy hehe.

Anyway, a recurring subject is often how people had lost friends or they had friends betray them.

I had to think about that one. Ultimately, you can't place pressure on your friends. Like, if you're drowning in a sea of great white sharks, I'm not expecting my friends to jump in and save me. I think that's the jurisdiction of family members to lose life and limb for you.

Now if it happens where one of my best friends jumps in and tries a rescue in that situation, I would not be surprised either. But at that point it's just a bonus.

But what I'm trying to say is that I think friendships must come without expectations. I think that's ultimately how it's worked out for us.

DC stamps

The post office is releasing a series of stamps based off of Superhero characters. Pretty cool if you ask me. Here's the link to the Post.

Now normally stamps aren't a big deal to me. But since doing my own thing I've had to use a lot of stamps and go to the post office almost routinely.

The stamps I've had are pretty lame. Sometimes they don't even ask and give you stamps that are butt ugly. Now I have a sheet that's all Xmas oriented so I need to get rid of that as fast as possible before the end of the month. How lame to get Xmas stamps after the season is all over?

Anyway, I gotta get me these stamps to use. All are pretty cool heroes....except I wasn't into Supergirl too much. Plasticman is another questionable one too.

Aquaman is arguably the lamest superhero in existence. He can talk to fish. Yay.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Pearls of Wisdom

A friend passed me a link to some other guy's blog that listed 10 rules about full-time freelancing. I thought it was very good... some of these I had to learn through trial and error myself. It's great to read things like this because you get to see how other people have similar experiences. Now I can see that I'm not always crazy.

I have this other book I read once called the "The E-Myth Revisited: Why Most Small Businesses Don't Work and What to Do About It" (Amazon.com). It's also a great motivator for those thinking about starting a business or those that already have.

Yet these 10 rules are very direct and practical. I don't think there's a single rule I disagree with here.

Just in case his site get's taken down for any reason. I'll quote his words here so I can always refer back to this myself for future reference:

1. Err on the side of abundant contact. If choosing among infrequent contact vs. abundant contact with clients, always offer more than less. Currently only 2 of my clients reside in Utah. The rest are scattered abroad. That typically means a remote working environment, in which email, IM, and phone replace traditional face-to-face or in-house interaction. Do whatever each project requires to ensure clients feel cared for and attended to. I’ve even held daily phone calls with clients over an extended period of time when it meant keeping a project on task.

2. Care for the future. It’s extremely easy to get caught up in client work in the present and fail to give proper attention to the marketing of one’s business in the future. Roughly 90% of my work comes as a result my site, and I’d be foolish to fail to author articles or other fresh content. However, my writing has slowed at times because of workload, and it’s a constant battle to ensure I keep a fresh presence. Set aside at least one-half day a week to promoting your business, whether that means cold calling, blogging, direct marketing, or other forms of self-promotion.

3. Care for the present. A charge to care for the future comes only with the harsh reality of caring for the present. It’s impossible to be concerned about future business without first successfully executing what’s already on the table. Work in progress is by far the better revenue stream when compared to potential prospects that may or may not pan out, so treat existing clients with care.

4. Avoid Monday deadlines. A while back I asked many of you to test 37signal’s newly launched Writeboard by answering the question, “Mondays: Excellent or lousy for deadlines?” I’m not certain this is the best use of Writeboard, but the exercise was worth the effort. Some of you argued for Monday deadlines, others against. My take? Unless the thought of spending your weekend behind a PC gets you giddy, you’d be wise to avoid Monday. I, for one, made the leap to freelance precisely to avoid working the weekends. A Monday deadline is anything but elusive of weekend client work. Sure, I’ve had to work my share of Saturdays since making the leap — it’s inevitable at times. But when I have any say in a deadline or the preparation thereof, I avoid Mondays at all costs.

5. Be cautious responding to emails outside business hours. Though I typically check email on Saturdays and evenings, I tend not to respond unless urgent. I’m cognizant of the fact that if I respond on a Saturday at 2pm or a Wednesday evening at 9pm, that gives every reason for others to assume I work any and all hours of the day. Again, I made the leap to avoid hectic work schedules, and I make every attempt to let others know that my availability comes without restriction during normal business hours but on a limited basis after hours.

6. Say ‘no’ as often as you say ‘yes’. I quoted Michael Porter in my ALA article and I’ll do so again here: “The essence of strategy is choosing what not to do.” Realize that every project you say ‘yes’ to inevitably locks up time that may or may not be better spent elsewhere in terms of project revenue, portfolio depth, and overall work satisfaction. It’s a game of opportunity cost, so be sure you’re choosing those projects that maximize a) the talent you offer clients and b) what you take home at the end of the day.

7. Make project expenses justify themselves. Often a project requires expenses for “raw” materials (e.g. stock photography) or additional contractor assistance. When these occasions arise, do your best to anticipate these expenses when bidding, and disclose them accordingly. Should they arise halfway through a project, discuss them with the client to see if a bid addenda is warranted. If not, evaluate the necessity of the expense, if it can’t be included aside from other allocated costs (your time, taxes, etc.), consider alternatives. Don’t rob Peter’s up-front payment on Project X to pay for Paul’s raw materials on Project Y. It’s simply good business practice to force each expense to be paid for by the project it’s tied to.

8. Beware the inevitable check delay. Though I’d been doing side work for over 5 years before making the leap, I don’t know that I was as prepared as I could have been to deal with check delays. Think about it: You submit an invoice. Your contact submits the invoice for payment. The check is cut. The check is mailed. You deposit the check. Your bank may or may not place a hold. The cash is finally available. Typical, right? Well, it’s not so bad when it’s side work, but when it’s your sole income, you better prepare accordingly. I’ve had the invoice to cash-in-hand cycle take up to 60 days before, regardless of net 30, late fees, or other terms I’ve assessed. Have enough cash in the bank to fill in gaps between cycles, or consider alternative payment methods (e.g. PayPal).

9. Be chummy with your point of contact. Speaking of potential client point-of-contacts, if you don’t a) get along well with him or her and b) think he or she is web savvy, you might avoid the project altogether. I can’t stress how crucial a good point-of-contact is in determining the outcome of a project. I’ve been fortunate to have stellar contacts for the duration of my freelancing. Be sure it’s someone you can establish a good relationship with and someone you can confide in driving the project forward wisely and timely.

10. Don’t leap without solid footing. Some of you have sent emails in recent months, most of which began like this: “I’ve been thinking about going solo…” If I didn’t say it in my response to you, I’ll say it here: Don’t make the leap until you’ve got the necessary experience and exposure to make it all happen. I said earlier that my leap was one of faith, and though it was, I was also quite confident the timing was right. I had the necessary experience (portfolio, client roll, variety of projects) and exposure (Google search, incoming links, readership) to leave the ground with solid footing, as ironic as that sounds. Had I made the leap a year earlier, I imagine I’d be back at a day job by now. So leap when you’re confident you’ll land smoothly.